Friday, February 6, 2009

Where have I been???

Goodness, how long has it been since I've updated this crazy thing??? Appears to have been about a month and a half. Lots going on...let's see where to start??? Well, we just got over sweet baby having RSV, Croup and Bronchiolitis. She is still on breathing treatments every 4 hours, but is improving daily. It was pretty hit or miss for the first few days. Because she receives Synagis, it kept the illnesses from becoming too serious...as in a helicopter ride to Riley. She did receive another dose of Synagis yesterday afternoon. That went fairly well until Delaney discovered that we weren't there for a social visit...she was there for shots!!! She really fought it this time. I pretty much had to lay on top of her and pin her down. Good times...

She is also on steroids to help with the inflammation in her lungs. I'll be lucky if our sweet baby girl doesn't turn out to be a dude. She received Viagra for the first month of her life and is now on steroids. If she gets hair on her chest, I'm making a phone call to someone!

My mom moved in with my Grandma in St. Joe for a few months. She was laid off about a month ago and moved in with her about 2 weeks ago. My grandma has some health issues and is unable to live by herself anymore and the cost of a nursing home is a little too much for her meager budget, so the solution (at least temporarily) is for my mom to live with her. My mom isn't much of a nurse, so this is challenging at times with my grandma, but they seem to be getting along as well as expected.

Found out last Friday that my melanoma has returned. I go in next Wednesday for another procedure to remove the remainder of the spot that was taken off and to decide what we are going to do. They told me during the first melanoma incident (March 2004) that if I go 5 years without any issues that I had a 90% chance that I will not ever get it again. If it returns within 5 years, there is 75% chance that it will be more aggressive and/or damaging. This March would have been 5 years...So...here we go again. I am convinced that they are going to get in there and find out that it really isn't melanoma, or if it is, it will be quickly taken care of with this next procedure. I cannot be sick, I have an 18-month old that is going to need her mommy for a variety of things sooner than later. So, I have to be ok for her.

Delaney will need me for:
*Potty Training (would like to see her Dad handle that)
*1st day of preschool
*Learning to tie her shoes
*Taking her pony for a trail ride
*Her first horse show
*learning to ride a bike
*learning to shoot hoops (actually, that will be her dad's job, but I need to be there for pictures)
*1st day of kindergarten
*buying all her school supplies for kindergarten (daddies can't do that!)
*She will need her hair done every day for school
*learning how to plant flowers, water the flowers, grow veggies and feed the birds
*she'll need me to slather her daily in sunscreen
*picking out her first bikini to wear to the beach with her friends
*helping her with homework
*teach her how to be a caring, compassionate, courageous, educated, beautiful young woman...

Even if she doesn't need me for any of these things...a little girl still just needs her mommy. I'm 32 years old and still need mine...

1 comment:

Nichole said...

Kara so glad D is getting better. Sorry, so sorry to hear that you aren't. this is the last thing you all need. I am praying that this is not anything big...God knows what you can handle.